life

I write today, with my mind full of conflicted feelings: sadness, guilt. Failing at a task, where you are responsible for others and expected to do perform well (for good enough reasons) is painful. Questioning your self-worth in times like these, is the most obvious way to deal with the disappointment that washes you. I feel like I often set myself up for failure. Like I can see in plain sight that keeping up with this behavior is not going to get to where I ought to go....